Wednesday, 26 February 2014

Wednesday Weigh-In 26 February

The wobbles are over. To be honest they were over when I wrote last week's weigh in article as I'd already dispensed with the gremlins and recovered what all dieters need, namely control. I've been somewhat quiet on the blogging front over the last 7 days, at least with regards to dieting. Usually when I go for periods without writing it is because I'm in an unhappy place and don't want to face the music. This week it has been more a question of quietly going about my business, with a steely determination to claw back some of the gains of the past three weeks.

As it has turned out, I've wiped the slate clean. And then a bit more. I've gone sub 14 stone for the first time since I don't know when. Probably 20 years or more. Maybe even a little further back.

Yikes!
While I have been very focused on the job at hand and disciplined with food since the last weigh-in, I've not exactly been living off rabbit food. Last Thursday I bought my son a McDonald's for a lunchtime treat and had one myself. Twice I've enjoyed Truly Irresistible Sticky Toffee Pudding with plenty of custard, thanks to Co-operative and their deliciously tempting half price deal. I've kept away from bread during workdays but indulged in cheese on toast on both Saturday and Sunday. There was even a little bit of grazing on Sunday, but I've become quite comfortable with the idea of having one day a week where I'm picking at things to eat, so long as the remaining 6 I'm not.

This week's loss then has been achieved through control. I've laughed in the face of the biscuits and chocolates being offered to me at work by colleagues. I've kept away from snacks all week, with the exception of Sunday. McDonald's was eaten in sensible proportion, having a medium size wrap of the day meal. Years ago I'd have plumped for a super size meal with at least 1 additional item from the saver menu on top. The toffee pudding was a bit of a vice I admit, but then one night it was factored in as a reward for a 5k run in the morning, and replaced booze which I've quietly taken off the menu.

With all of my focus on my weight, I have dropped the ball somewhat on the exercise front. Beyond my parkrun on Saturday morning, the only time I've pulled on the running gear was last Wednesday night when I didn't go particularly far. Interrupted nights courtesy of the little man combined with a bit less energy from ditching the junk has meant I've not really been up for exercise. I'm acutely aware that the half marathon is less than 4 weeks away now so will have to put in some lengthy training runs between now and then, which means I'll need to fuel up. It was worth sacrificing a few miles in the last 7 days to help restore my sanity. Let's hope it sticks around for a while longer.


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Saturday, 22 February 2014

Spina Bifida is not a dirty word

Forgive me for taking the blog in a slightly different direction with this article. Rather than talk about my dieting exploits or bore you further with exercise boasts, I'm going to write about an issue that is very close to my heart, namely Spina Bifida.

There have been quite a number of articles about Spina Bifida this week in the national press, or at least in the online versions. You can read some of these by looking at the links at the bottom of the page, including one that was featured on the Telegraph website. For those who don't want to read ahead, the general jib of these articles concerns research which shows only a third of women are taking folic acid before falling pregnant. As such, their babies are at risk of developing a neural tube defect, such as Spina Bifida.

I appreciate you may not really know what Spina Bifida is. Rewind the clock 18 months and I was blissfully ignorant too, but received a crash course during the pregnancy of my second son after his 20 week scan revealed that he had drawn the short straw and was the 1 in 1000 unborn children affected by the condition. While 9 out of 10 Spina Bifida pregnancies are terminated in the UK, we chose to continue, with my gorgeous little man born last February.

Where does folic acid fit into this equation? Well, if taken in the months prior to conception, it is said to reduce the risk of neural tube defects by up to 70 per cent. A number of countries have introduced folic acid to bread flour to ensure than mums to be are getting a sensible dosage. Part of the stir in the media this week has been the discussion of this happening in the UK. Cue lots of negative comments about governmental meddling by inserting man made chemicals into staple food, which will only be to the short term benefit of females of child bearing age. I'm not going to make a case for or against messing with a loaf of Warburtons, but I do think that if more people were aware of what Spina Bifida is, there would be a lot more people wanting to proactively take folic acid.

Spina Bifida for my son has meant the following. His spinal column did not form properly, causing part of the spinal cord to exist outside his body, in the form of a lesion on his back. Hours after his birth, a neurosurgeon operated, to repair the spinal column. However, the exposure of the spine results in nerve damage. As a result, the function level below the lesion is impacted, meaning bladder and bowel issues along with a degree of lower limb paralysis. He requires catheterisation five times a day. We're yet to fully discover his mobility impairment, though the physiotherapists are optimistic he will be able to walk, albeit with assistance. A wheelchair is likely to be necessary for anything further than short distances. We'll need to adapt our house or look for a more suitable property. We're already becoming familiar with a range of clinicians, including his neurosurgeon, bladder specialist, physio, paediatrician and urology nurse. There are medical appointments a plenty, including MRI scans and videourodynamics. From reading stories from other parents of Spina Bifida children, we appear to have got off relatively lightly, with no additional surgery or stays in hospital to date. Long may that continue.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not complaining about our lot. We made our choices. There were 'options' presented to us. I'm very much in the pro-choice camp, and can fully understand why others may reach an alternative decision when faced with the prospect of all that is listed above, or in many cases far worse. The prospect of more women taking folic acid, whether hook or by crook, is a welcome development, particularly if it results in less families having their world turned upside down following an anomaly scan.

Of course, while taking folic acid could be good news for 70% of affected pregnancies, there will still be Spina Bifida babies due to other 30%. My wife took folic acid when we were trying for a baby. A Dutch lady who responded to some of my recent tweets informed me that she did the same, and yet her newborn son has Spina Bifida. Whether folic acid is introduced to bread or not, there will still be families like mine who will receive a diagnosis they were not expecting. And that is why I am a passionate supporter of the Shine Charity. Not only do they actively push the Go Folic message, but they are also on hand to provide information and guidance about Spina Bifida (and Hydrocephalus). When we first learned about our son's condition we had more questions than answers. Shine helped us to gain a broader understanding of the condition and what it could mean in practice. Their input was invaluable, certainly more so than the regimented 'Spina Bifida Bad' voices we heard from various doom merchants we spoke to in the days and weeks following the scan.

I was rather annoyed with one article that referred to Spina Bifida as a disease, before a couple of tweets to the editorial team saw the word amended to condition. My son is certainly not diseased. He is just like any other 12 month old. He loves to sit and play. He claps his hands. He takes great joy in splashing his daddy with bathwater. He can be a real pain in the backside when he decides to wake up at 4 in the morning. He is now trying to crawl and making a bloody good fist of it. Admittedly he looks more like a commando slithering through mud on his elbows, but he's finding a way to get round despite his mobility impairment. He was awarded Star of the Week at his daycare provider today. Was he pleased about this? You bet!



I am incredibly proud of my little ray of sunshine. There are going to be challenges ahead, but they will be overcome. Spina Bifida is not a dirty word, and thankfully there are organisations like Shine who are prepared to educate about the condition as well as spread the word about the benefit of taking folic acid.

I will be doing my little bit to spread awareness too, by running my first half marathon next month, wearing a Shine vest and fundraising for the charity. You can support me by offering sponsorship on my Just Giving page - all donations go straight to the charity and any pennies you can spare will help to support families like mine that are affected by those two little words.

Thanks for reading, and wish me luck on 22 March when I tackle 13.1 miles!



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Wednesday, 19 February 2014

Wednesday Weigh-In - 19 February

There was no need for atmospheric music building to a crescendo this morning. I knew the outcome of Wednesday Weigh In long before I jumped onto the scales. For the third straight week there is a gain and whereas there have been no alarm bells ringing out in previous weeks, my attention is now firmly been gripped. A tipping point was reached a couple of days ago, and now I’m consciously moving back into diet mode. There is no point in talking about maintenance if all I’m doing is piling on the pounds.

Not a giant leap for mankind, but an unwelcome upward trajectory

I stopped the rot on Monday night, putting an end to the feasting that has become daily ritual of late. While it was too late to reverse the effects of the preceding days, it felt good to call it quits. It is a very strange feeling knowing that you are hurting yourself with food, but when I’m on a downward spiral, I find it very difficult to stop. Although never formally identified, I tick most of the characteristics of a binge eater. Compulsive overeating is more than just seeking comfort from a box of chocolates or a tub of ice cream. I certainly never got to 24 stone through indulging in just an occasional treat. It is a constant need to eat, whether hungry or not, despite knowing that I don’t need to.

When I find myself rummaging through cupboards grabbing handfuls of breakfast cereal, I know there is a problem. Recognising it as an issue is the first step to addressing the situation. I’ve become adept at dieting through adopting a tight disciplinary approach to what I consume, thus suppressing compulsion. My attitude towards weight maintenance has probably hindered me. I was supposed to be keeping things steady at 14 stone rather than looking for further weightloss. Psychologically I think this was a green light for my defences to drop and with broken sleep thrown into the mix, I cooked up a nice big portion of dieting sabotage.

The good news is I feel I’ve emerged from the slump. Yesterday I didn’t deviate from my three meals, barring a couple of mouthfuls of my eldest son’s leftovers. I rejected biscuit and chocolate overtures from colleagues. I kept my grubby mitts away from the cupboards apart from when there was legitimate reason to do so. I feel like I’ve re-established control and pushing this dieting juggernaut back on track. Even the little man obliged last night giving me a whole night in my own bed for the first time in quite a while.

The last three weeks have seen me gain 4 pounds. I’m making demands of myself to have a loss next week. With good eating habits restored and intentions for some lengthy training runs in the coming days, that is a realistic target.





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