Yesterday don't mean......

That was the weekend that was. I'm quite disappointed in myself for letting things slip, but I'm determined that I am going to put things behind me and get back to what has worked for me so far. Diet discipline with sensible meals. Already though I can feel it is going to be tough day. I'm feeling hungry which stands to reason given my stomach will have expanded through the weekend.

This rather brings home that dieting isn't something that I can turn on or off at the flick of a switch. It also serves as a reminder that with all the will and motivation in the world, external factors can and will affect my ability to reach my goals. I can't control those, and there will be days to come in the very near future where I may need to seek out comfort food to help get me from one day to the next. But what I can do is make sure that on better days, I'm in control and working towards where I want to be.

With that in mind, I'm putting this past weekend behind me. I can't change the fact I ate poorly but I can ensure that the week starts off on the right foot. Bran flakes this morning. Lots of water. Lunch to follow. More water. Simple dinner tonight. It sounds so easy typing it out. Just a small matter of psychological battles to win along the way.

To use musical metaphors, where I want to be right now is Nina Simone Feeling Good.

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

However, where I am today is more akin to Pantera's Yesterday Don't Mean Shit

Cause yesterday don't mean shit 
What's over is over and nothing between 
Yesterday don't mean shit 
Because tomorrow's the day you have to face 
There's no rewinding time 
Yesterday don't mean shit 
Yesterday don't mean shit 



Both songs are about forgetting the past and recognising that things start afresh from today. One is quite beautiful, the other an ugly snarling record grimacing through gritted teeth. That is certainly where I'm at with my diet today. I'm going to win this battle, but it sure as hell isn't going to be pretty.